December 2010
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I'll survive.
I guess I can’t keep letting others throw me away like crap. It’s alright. It’s… fine. Let’s just stick to it this time.
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Because this is wrong,
Because it is always harder on you than me, Because I am horrible under this light, Because damaged goods are all we are, We dance, in this somber night air, We dance, drenched in passion and guilt, We dance, like tomorrow is another dream, We dance, in fear but seemingly without. On and on we twirl, us dazed butterflies in the dark. On and on, and on. Until the trap shuts in, Petrified as...
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I was waiting for you to kiss my forehead. I got tired of waiting and kissed yours instead. Waiting is not an option anymore. Perhaps it is wrong, but I have never known anything as right. Madness, madness.
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“I don’t know what the fuck we’re doing but I kind of don’t...”
– 23rd December 2010
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“It’s the most wonderful time of the year.”
– 22nd December 2010
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A long, long day this has been.
Heartbreak, Family torn apart, Incompleteness, Why does it feel like there is more to come, Worse to come? So much to be said, So much to be felt, So many tears to tame, So many wounds to lick clean, I want to stop asking questions. I am accepting facts. I am making peace with my decisions, My actions, My lack of actions. Impulses have never overpowered me, ...
“NO ONE can change a person, but someone can be a reason for a person to change.”
– Spongebob Squarepants (via thechocolatebrigade)
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So that’s it. Cards are on the table. All I can do now is be afraid.
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“Blame the alcohol” I wrote, Then I whispered, “I meant everything I said, It’s not the alcohol.”
Burning desires and weary, untamed hearts, This is wrong. This is wrong. We are liars and cheats, Jerks and whores. Isn’t it ridiculous? What’s meant to be and what’s not. For once, these emotions are bursting at the seams, For once, I meant every single word, All was right in the world. I...
This twisted game is exhausting. An ephemeral elation, Then terrifying phobias of abandonment. I want to let go, Of your hand, Of your words. Oh is that not the hardest, darnest thing? Letting you slip away. Time, Time. I need time. I need space. We all do. I want time, accompanied. I want space, filled. Do talk to me. I can’t just throw my pride away for you to treat me like...
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You're terrorizing me. You are.
I respect you but it is getting a bit too much.
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“I like flowers and shoes. What.”
– 11.12.10
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“Can’t do this. Can’t do this. Can’t do this.
Can’t...”
– 10th December 2010
I guess what I really want is to feel loved. Like...
There’s nothing to be angry about. That was the last thought that came through my head and it was the most restful sleep I’ve had in a while. Like I said, I am not particularly good at holding grudges. Eventually, I always find a reason to live and let die. There really is no point in being upset and draw on the bad things that have happened. Again, I am not sorry. I don’t...
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“Just a shitpack of fucking lies.”
– 8th December 2010
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I will hold it together, You can run, it is alright. We all shiver at times. These secret hugs and stolen kisses, they might as well mean nothing at all. Principles were broken, Determination has never been my forte. The screen is shaking as I’m chopping these lines, Low blood pressure. I don’t wish to blame anybody for what has happened. We put matters in our own hands and,...