December 2009
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“I just think I need a bit more than this. I do suspect I deserve a bit more than...”
– 31 December 2009
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31 December 2009
For now, just for now I don’t want to be here. Home, where people love me and will do no matter what. Sometimes I have to break out, just for the sake of it, just to stay sane by being insane. To know what I have by testing the limits, to appreciate what I lost by losing something dear. Here’s to the new year, 2010, here’s to life and death and what not, here’s to the...
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“I am aware of my desperation and piteousness. It’s soothing to know there...”
– 30 December 2009
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Portable Chronicles Updates
Somethings remain dear to your heart, no matter how hard you try to erase or how hurt you are. It is easy to get there, thousand times harder to come back. It’s not about controlling what you think or how you feel, because you can’t. All you can do is just sit there, impotent and exhausted, waiting for something different to happen that’ll change the way things are. Someone new,...
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“You were the closest I’ve ever gotten to belonging.”
– Ah, enough with the praises, you might be offended by some of the things I’ve written here hahhhah.
12 December 2009
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“Feelings, no more. Sometimes it’s hard though, the little memories that...”
– 30 December 2009.
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To have and to hold dear,
What little left is there to cherish? Shattered, crashed and burnt. Remnants, we are. Hold on love, hold on, something great might happen, or else we’ll just drown in our miseries and insecurities, simply just that.
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“Tonight, I took care of my best friend. Yes, it is that significant. Our little...”
– 30.12.09
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“…And I once claimed it was easy.”
– 28.12.09
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I’ve had enough of regrets and revelations.
At least for now.
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Where are you?
13723.) I miss being your friend so damn much. I'm...
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We don’t even get a nod of acknowledgement. Cheers.
Don't get me wrong, I still care, I just stopped...
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“…And I thought everything was easy.”
– 27.12.09
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I just, I get worn out imagining what it was like...
Gosh, enough with the guilt.
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Line,. Blurred.
Tương lai, mù mịt và xa vời vợi. Chắc chẳng xa vời vợi đâu, nhưng mờ nhạt và xa cách sao đó. Chợt thấy hơi hụt hẫng, thấy chút tiếc nuối cho ngày hôm nay bị phớt lờ, trôi qua như bẫng, chẳng có phút tĩnh lặng để nhìn nhận. Chuyện gì chẳng xảy ra được, nhỉ? Một ngày nào đó sẽ lại có lưỡng khách lạ ghé vào quán nhỏ giữa dòng đời bôn ba, rồi ta cùng ngồi lại tưởng nhớ đến tuổi trẻ ngày nào. Tươi...
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I am loading up my mac with tons of new music that I probably wouldn’t even remember. I tend to download music, and by that I mean a lot of music, when I’m melancholic.
Yeah.
Merry belated Christmas btw.
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They really didn’t film my performance. Discriminated much?
Disappointed. I don’t know what I want. I don’t know what I can get. Fuckadolafuck.
Memories, memories. Please don’t go there. It’s going to hurt again. Don’t. Go. There.
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“For some reason I have a sudden craving for French music…”
– 25.12.09
4294) Even though everyone tells me I look fine,...
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Chihuahua or Vacancy?
Vacancy all the way. Chihuahua is to pooch for my taste. Merry, merry christmas. Joyeux Noel.
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The first person I explained what my tattoo is about to is mom. Surprise, surprise.
And yes, I’ve known for quite a while that you guys are not happy together. I wouldn’t mind a divorce. Not that big a deal. It would just mean I get a bit more room to breath. Though I do not know how my mom would make a living without dad. Well it probably won’t happen any time soon, the...
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Before we talk, you should know I'm boring.
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Also, did I bang my head somewhere?
I can’t rememberrrrrrrrrrr! And now there’s just this spot in my head that keeps hurting. Bugging the heck out of me.
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“I hate it when I can’t remembered certain things that happened when I was...”
– Yeah, last night apparently I carved of my nail polish and tore my toe nail. Fuckk.
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I'd like to think I tried as hard as I could have....
Though deep inside I’ll always know that wasn’t the case.
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“Suddenly I miss being missed.”
– 21.12.09
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“At times like last night, I was just glad I wasn’t dating anybody. Maybe a...”
– 20.12.09
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There’s no anger, no sadness. They say when you’ve sunk so far down and felt so much, all you have left is this endless emptiness. Been there, done that. It’s okay now, terms of life and all. I am alright, or rather I am too tired to give a shit. It’s the holidays for fuck’s sakes. Let’s just go party already!
And yes, I have never been so fucked up than last...
Things don't get lost if they don't have value -...
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You possess the corner of my eye everyday.
Those days are gone.
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I feel inferior. I feel fat and ugly and untalented and useless and impotence and cynical and fucking disappointed. Still, success isn’t enough, I still feel ugly, I am still ugly. I’ll never be as charming, beautiful, smart, talented, attractive as they are. Enough isn’t enough, it never is, for people like me.
Smirk, it rains, it freezes. I am tired and I just want to curl up,...
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Thinking about it, I don’t know why I let you slip away so easily. To be completely honest, I was falling for you but I don’t know, I guess things just happen. I am irrational and cynical, I just am. Sometimes I let little things get the better of us, of the big picture. Oh well, it all happens for a reason, for a bigger reason. Or so I hope.
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things that made my day: surprise canon, CREAM and...